Just a Small Formula

Where does that sound come from?!
I barely noticed in my dreams, but then I started to wake up and I obviously didn't wish it.

How am I reacting to whatever is called destiny, if I do have plans!!

People!, I don't wanna get stocked on the traffic, don't wanna feel fat in the mornings, don't wanna say shit about nothing, I just want a perfect day.

Then here I am, having lunch at the park with some of my jobmates and I feel nothing besides anxiety because I wanted to have lunch with the boy I sooo like. What in the earth for god sake is going on? Why is nothing happening as I wished, as I planned, as I actually figure out my life?

Coming back to work and my boss is teasing me about the work that I was supposed to deliver before I actually did. What about my jobmates making fun of whatever I don't think it's funny about me.

Usually I would think that coming back home makes me feel better, maybe some excercise would help me wrap my troubles and get something new to think about,  you know, I'm talking about revenge dude!

I'm at home again, and my parents are so likely to be andropausical and menopausical that I just can't stand them those days, guys, give me a break, you would'nt even care if I'm on my PMS, and you would blame me about everything just because I don't seem to be confortable and I have any smile to give them during my pain.

I got pissed off, and of course I decided to let myself aside the road, and why not go for a relaxing running because even though my day was awful as so many others it can still end well, and yup! I get to see the hot guys running over there, 'cuz who cares I'm a single lady!

Running three miles will be enough I think to myself, and whenever I'm changing the tune on my mp3 player, my ankle just twisted, I felt, kinda rolled over the track and guess what! Hot guys running around me, and that's not the worst part, my ex's  girlfriend staring at me as If I were such a fool.

The way back home, around 9 p.m. walking on the street I just keep thinking what I did to myself that I cannot make any better nevertheless I know I'm way better than this. I started weeping and I'm so concerned about my future.

I don't even wanna take a shower, I feel upset and that's it- I was thinking- I sat on my bed and looked at the picture of me when I used to be really depressed, and something came to my mind.

Heyyy you little pseudo-depressed girl! What's going on with you!
So I figured out that everything seems completely wrong when you get to the idea that everything has to be perfect just because you wanna feel fine about it. And you see you are forgetting something really certain, the more you want things to happen just one way, the more alternatives figuring out to happen.

I noticed that the only thing you have on those awful days to feel better is you, yourself, your own attitude on things, walking head up not caring about circunstances, and the most important thing I figured out was that I did work a lot of times to me, and suddenly I forgot my formula.

And what I do to feel good everyday doesn't have anything to be with what happens to me. I just creat those little moments that the smaller they are the richest they are.

• Smile to the first person I see during the day.
• Make at least one of your friends, teammates, jobmates laugh when they need it.
• Tell someone you love that you really care about them not with words but with actions.
• Make something you would feel proud of yourself at the end of the day.
• Eat something you really crave for with no regrets.
• Do some excercise with the original purpose of relax yourself.
• Take a shower
• Drink some water
• Eat a fruit
• Read some
• Watch your dogs and talk to them even if you feel like a crazy person.
• Watch TV for at least 20 minutes.
• Say hello to everybody you meet up.
• Listen to music out loud at least on ur headphones 4 a while
• Sing!

Just a small formula:   Happinness:  :)