An answer quest for a non-conflict situation

I guess I'm just forgiving everybody I have to even If I'm not aware of whom I mean.

I guess I'm trying not to want but to act like if every circunstance is a bowl full of chances.

I guess I'm trying not to expect anything besides to reach the best of my kindness and explore again (or maybe for the first time) the experience of giving it to the ones and the things I love.

I guess I am tired of wondering which is gonna be my life in the future years, instead all the time I'm staring carefully at all the things I live right at the moment of its happenin and figuring out what benefit I can get from each one of them.

I guess I don't want to look back anymore, but I can talk about my past when people ask me with regards.

I guess my ideal is to learn from everything and get the chance to express every single thing that every teacher taught me; the word teachers standing for every single person who has sometime any sort of relationship with me.

And that's how the Dalai Lama stood up for the idea of being "Cleverly selfish" !

I guess concerns, regrets and suffer are made to make us believe in what we are again and again, and that way we don't lose ourselves, because to keep going on our road we need some kick ass or awful experiences that distract us from it and then make us want to come back with or without our loved souls, our closest ones...

I believe sometimes it gets more difficult to overcome a success than a failure, so do not go easily confident!

And then in every road, those same highways we see everytime we travel, in a certain way connect us again to the things we did before, the people we used to love and the bad and good times we spent once upon a time... but if we look closer to the edge of the road, we see ourselves in a very different road because we have already changed it with our self-commitment to accomplish every challenge this road put us as a proof, and even when we fail, we get closer to our dream, the one that keep us waking up everyday with a gentle gesture on our face for the only reason of being standing up for it again and coming back to the jealous, tricky and untrusty road, but the same one we wanna keep walking on just because there's the need to figure oyut everyday the exact reason that made us woke up. Of course this reason can be different everyday but the essence of it is the same, KINDNESS AND WELLNESS for all that sorround us and finally FOR US.

That jealous, tricky and untrusty road is the same one we love passionately growing proportionally to our capability of giving of its challenges and consequently learning from the results in order to take us back to it again. and that road will only make us either MISERABLE or PROUD OF US. That's the choice for everybody and the best part: It is for free! Despite of all the earth objects are not.

Perhaps we keep guessing which choice to take, where to find the best way to act, how to get into the road once again and even which is the road I keep talking about in this note?

I say the road is every action we take everyday, so we have bunches or roads that come together with both choices, and THAT IS ALL FOR FREE!

It is perfectly fine not to know exactly WHAT WE WANT when people ask us.
Let's keep in mind that what we want is not a situation BUT AN EMOTIONAL, SPIRITUAL, PHYSICAL AND PSYCOLOGICAL STATE OF MIND.

Learn to love somebody new, to like a different kind of music, try to speak another language in a fluent way not worrying about your accent, try the strangest meal of the menu, read another kind of a book, sing out loud when you really feel like, do not feel ashamed of smiling by yourself, get marvel of those sunrises, and make the people working at the video center fed up with you.

Modus Vivendi

Everyday such a pretty standard lifestyle and still sometimes I don't even recognize what I really enjoy, who I really expect to be with me,who I like to talk to..

Passing by, seeing trough old friendly faces, all around myself, and they were always there, How could I just didn't see them that way?

I went towards the ocean, towards the woods, and I didn't find out which way to go better, until I portrayed myself drowning in a lake,in the sea, letting everything I've learned just infront of me, and everything I'd enjoyed before like the realest thing, having only one reason instead, I don't quite have an option, considering that one was loneliness.

Green miles, now again I went into the rainy clouds, the ones that whispered to me on those times, and I reset my self-assasinment recovering all I had to see sometime that I should have never let go but on the other hand I would have never known which way to go at the end of the day if I hadn't measure my fall over those fields before.

I gave some things for granted, I over reacted to some others and so on... I recall every piece of me under the grass of periods, and then I find out the missing piece of my present's puzzle, with all these friends, my family, my dogs and my own at best heart and mind conditions..

I don't really need the past, and I definetely don't need the future, Because I finally found home, and this is here, at the top of my heart.

Perpendicular

Las líneas pueden ser verticales y horizontales, y convergir en forma paralela o perpendicular...
It all depends on when it happens.. eso diríamos las dos..
Fuimos como líneas perpendiculares desde el momento en que por alguna razón
o una loca trazada de la vida, nos encontramos en el mismo sitio.
Perpendicular fue la manera en que nos encontramos de hecho, mi amiga sentada en un sillón con vista al  poniente, yo caminando hacia el sillón con vista al norte.
Perpendicular fue la manera en que nos distanciamos, hablando meramente de distancia como tal, ella regresó por sus cosas al sur, yo regresé con mis cosas al norte.
Ella dejó unas cosas, yo regresé a otras, ella llegó a un mundo nuevo, yo regresé a uno viejo.
Podría ser que esas líneas de vida no se encontraran y siguieran el mismo curso, podría ser que no;
pero lo que creo es que por alguna razón aún desconocida por las dos, nos encontramos y nuestras vidas surgieron de esa manera, y que tarde o temprano, en la esquina de otra parada nos encontraremos.
Las compañías serán diferentes quizás, los hábitos, el trabajo, las rutinas, los intereses,
pero como líneas perpendiculares, tendremos siempre algo en común que nos hará convergir, congeniar
y siempre apoyarse una con la otra, y que no matter what happens, even if it all dependes on that, "vos y yo boluda"  ambas, seremos lo que queremos ser y sonreiremos como en aquella foto.

Ésta entrada es dedicada para mi querida amiga "Chispa" y venga, que es mi primera dedicación, Te quiero morenaza!